Avoiding Burnout

 Life right now is a little insane. I mean it's always insane as a parent, but life outside our home feels completely insane. The situation in Israel, the rising costs of just putting food on the table, the constant bickering with absolutely no resolve in Washington. It's all a bit much. Too much. 

I am going to keep trying to do my best to enjoy and explore the things I can control. The prices will continue to rise, people will continue to be crazy, but life at home, that's what I can focus on. I know changes are coming as they always do. I know that we will eventually be bird launchers, not empty nesters, because calling it that makes it seem like there is nothing left. I hope our home is always a safe place, a place our girls and people in general flock to. Yes, I like puns. I'm glad you noticed.

I've been beating myself up over some poor choices lately. Food, exercise, finances. I need to STOP and focus on the things I can change. Stop with the damn sweets. Stop making excuses about why I can work out tomorrow. (I mean hello I've lost 110 pounds, I can lose more!) And try to control the expenses that I have control over. Once this month is over, things will be a little easier finance wise, I hope.

So while I am trying my best not to over think, over plan, over analyze, I know it's one day, one hour at a time sometimes, so I can avoid burnout. I do NOT want to feel like that again!

Oof.

 Bad moods man. Oof. 

I came in today ready to take the day on, and then bam, a bad mood hit me and I have been struggling since. Actually, now that I think about it, I think the bad mood has been building. I think I've been spending way too much time on social media and not enough time doing the good stuff. Walking the dogs, digging my hands in dirt, reading, snuggling with the dogs, with the husband, with the kids. I've been partaking in all things sugar, darn that candy corn! And I just feel blah. 

Kind of over it. Kind of over people. Kind of over social media. 

So tonight, I'm going to unplug from all of that.

Take the dogs for a walk.

Get my hands dirty.

Change my attitude.

Time

 I think the hardest part to accept as an adult, is that time is not your friend. 

When you're young, you think you have time. Time to work. Time to save. Time to dream. Time to do that one thing you have always wanted to but just don't have the (insert reason) to do it now. But as you age, as the time marches on, you realize time is not your friend. And if you don't do the things you set out to, then you are left behind wondering....

Of course that does not mean life has to be a big bag of regrets. That's not what I mean. I just wish I knew at 22 that forever isn't really forever. I should have started saving more. I should have started working out every single time I set out to. I should have cherished the moments with family and friends as time spun past me. I can't go back in time, that is the other cruel realization. However, I can make the time from right now, mean something so that when I'm 66, I can say, I did it. I appreciated the time. I learned to make it work for me and I have had a good time.